Slowly but surely

     We are slowly but surely getting our raffle tickets sold. I have faith that we will get it done! We have had a few very helpful people help us sell tickets and get the word out. We have one more month to sell  tickets so It will be good. I also stated on online fundraising site to sell them online or take any donations people are willing to give. I guess you could say I have resorted to begging! At this point, I am not above that! I am so ready to have the money to start one way or another. If only teachers got paid more! :)
     I am more positive this weekend because I am determined to have a better week. I think I cried at least 50 times last week. It is wearing me out. The mental exhaustion and daily stress is taking its toll. I always want to go to work but it took every thing in my being to go to work a couple days last week. I share a classroom with 3 other adults and I was not pleasant to work with. Bless their hearts, they put up with me though. I need to take a "mental health day," but I am sure it would just be spent doing the same things. I will just look toward Thanksgiving Holidays for a break and enjoy my family for a couple of days.
     I also wanted to mention that I met up with someone that had been done this same road of wanting a child so badly. She was so informative of the IVF process. My step-sister introduced us and she came along as well. We all talked for 3 hours. It helps to talk to someone that can give you a little insight into what would be ahead if we choose that option. I really admire how strong she was. When your in the middle of this and you talk to others that have made it through the hell that infertility is...I just think gosh, i hope one day I seem like that to someone, because right now there are times I am a hot mess when I talk about it. I keep up a good front most of the time though.
     So, today is my day one so I will start adding Decadron to my daily meds. I will take a low dose pill once a day at bedtime. I will start my Chlomid again in a couple of days. When you calculate it on the calendar, ovulation day falls on the weekend again. As far as my husband, we have not heard anything back from his doctor concerning his last semen analysis. I don't know if we should call him or what. I am almost tempted to get a second opinion. It is hard for me to think that there is not more help for him. I guess we will have to talk about it and make a decision.
     Ok, so here are the next few things I am planning on doing....1) asking for a referral to the reproductive endocrinologist in Memphis for a consultation just to check it out. 2) try to set up a meeting with someone who choose adoption. 3) check out other agencies (we have been looking into New Beginnings) 4) keep raising money so when we make our decision we can hit the ground running.

Keep Praying and Thanks for the Support!